I turn thirty-eight today. 38. I don’t mind sharing my age. God has given me 38 years. There are so many who never make it to 38 so I will be thankful for every year - the good and the bad.
I don’t really “feel” like thirty-eight. Inside I guess I feel like I’m in my 20s.
I have made a lot of mistakes in these 38 years and I hope and pray I have learned from every one of them. I hope I am better than I was at 26, 32, 37. I hope that I am wiser, stronger, and more confident than I was at 17, 29, 31.
37 was rough, Sisters. I am not going to lie to you. It was the hardest year of my life. When I turned 37 I looked up its meaning in The Word. Numbers in the Bible have significant meanings both literally and symbolically. For example, you may hear of the number seven being “God’s Number” or the number six being the “Mark of the Beast.” Numbers have specific meanings.
The number 37 has a significant meaning in the Bible. “When you see anything related to number 37 (and its reverse 73) think about number 777, perfection, sanctification, consecration, truth, and Jesus.” (Source)
This year has certainly been a year of perfection and sanctification as Christ has continued to conform me into His image. It has not been easy. C.S. Lewis said it perfectly, “We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be.” God’s best turned out to be very painful this year.
If you are going through a season of sanctification and perfection it may hurt, it may stretch you, it may make you uncomfortable . . . but it also may produce the best version of YOU you have ever seen. In the darkest moments, remember that He is perfecting us in the Refiner’s Fire (Malachi 3:3).
I am so glad 37 is over and I sit here . . . now 38 . . . looking forward to a new season and a new day.
Today, I am making 38 promises to my future self. The future can be 30 years down the road or 30 days down the road. So on my 38th birthday, here are thirty promises to my future self. I encourage you to adapt them as well or create your own list of promises.
I PROMISE . . .
- . . . to stop worrying so much. (Matthew 6:25-34)
- . . . to be thankful for each day, situation, experience . . . good or bad . . . knowing that each situation will make me stronger. (1 Timothy 4:4-5)
- . . . to get more sleep. (Psalm 4:8)
- . . . to let go of relationships that were only placed in my life for a season. Lately, my life has felt like a revolving door - people in and out constantly. When people leave, it breaks my heart. I promise myself to trust that God knows best and when relationships end, I will take the lessons I learned, the laughter, and the love I gave and received, and cherish it. But I will let them go. (Proverbs 3:5)
- . . . I will take my vitamins every day.
- . . . to drink more water and less Diet Pepsi. (This is the hardest one on the list LOL!!!)
- . . . to be joyful - not happy - joyful. “Happiness is an emotion and temporary; joy is an attitude of the heart.” (Source)
. . . to stop looking at the past in life’s rear-view mirror. I promise to look ahead. (Proverbs 4:25-27)
- . . . to replace negative thoughts about myself with Words of Life. (Proverbs 18:21)
- . . . to do something for me each week. Something just for me!
- . . . to forgive myself for my past mistakes.
- . . . to take care of myself - mind, body, spirit. (1 Samuel 30:6)
. . . to begin to dream again.
- . . . to expect more of myself than others.
- . . . to laugh so hard that I snort. (Proverbs 17:22)
- . . . to lose forty more pounds.
- . . . I will become free from financial fears by working hard and never quitting.
- . . . to forgive once friends who turned into enemies. (Luke 6:27-30)
- . . . to read the entire Bible in a year.
- . . . to find ways to love the season of life I am in.
- . . . to have more fun!
- . . . that I will stop trying to control everything.
- . . . to spend a week in the mountains . . . in the winter . . . in a cabin . . . with no cell phone!
- . . . to stop worrying about what others think about me.
. . . to not lose my smile.
- . . . embrace change.
- . . . to allow the lessons of the past make me better . . . not bitter.
- . . . to live my life in a way that inspires others to live a better life.
- . . . to SPARKLE!
- . . . to appreciate my friends and my family. I promise to tell them that more often.
- . . . to exercise more.
- . . . sing more, dance more, play my piano more.
. . . to finally make a CD of my worship music.
- . . . to be fearless. (Isaiah 41:10
- . . . to work hard now so future me doesn’t have to work as hard.
- . . . to be content in all situations
- . . . to visit the Four Seasons in Bora Bora.
. . . to be proud of who I’ve become.
I pray that you have made promises to yourself and are keeping them and fulfilling them. I am going to live on purpose this year and make time to make memories.
I pray that The Lord blesses "38" and that I can truly live a life that makes Him proud.